The Day I Scared Someone 
				Written by: Janie

**I haven't been on AIM for a while and to my surprise no one that I regularly 
talked with was online so to past the time  I did a "buddy search" on AIM.  
Luckily I found someone in the category "Family Issues" **

janie jew (4:30:55 PM): hi
Quanto inferno (4:30:58 PM): hi
janie jew (4:31:15 PM): how are you?
Quanto inferno (4:31:32 PM): im am quite fine and yourself
janie jew (4:31:52 PM): you really want to know?
Quanto inferno (4:32:00 PM): surely
Quanto inferno (4:32:06 PM): i woudlnt have asked if i didnt want to kno
janie jew (4:32:15 PM): i want to kill myself
janie jew (4:32:25 PM): i dont have any reasons to live anymore
Quanto inferno (4:32:32 PM): not even one.
janie jew (4:32:32 PM): i just smoked like an ounce of crack
janie jew (4:32:37 PM): i feel
Quanto inferno (4:32:38 PM): shit
janie jew (4:32:39 PM): so
Quanto inferno (4:32:42 PM): numb?
janie jew (4:32:46 PM): yeah
janie jew (4:32:51 PM): i want to just end it all
Quanto inferno (4:33:00 PM): yeah i kno that feeling
Quanto inferno (4:33:04 PM): but dont do it 
janie jew (4:33:04 PM): i want the pain to stop
janie jew (4:33:44 PM): hello?
janie jew (4:33:45 PM): hello?

	**I don't think that she believed me at first but...**

Quanto inferno (4:33:50 PM): yeah
Quanto inferno (4:33:52 PM): im here
Quanto inferno (4:33:53 PM): sheesh
Quanto inferno (4:34:00 PM): go get hel
Quanto inferno (4:34:18 PM): help*
janie jew (4:34:23 PM): no one wants to help me
Quanto inferno (4:34:33 PM): whos no one?
Quanto inferno (4:34:36 PM): not your mom or dad
Quanto inferno (4:34:42 PM): what about a shrink
Quanto inferno (4:34:46 PM): or a hospital
janie jew (4:35:31 PM): well the thing is that ive been into three asylums
janie jew (4:35:34 PM): and no one can help
Quanto inferno (4:35:51 PM): shit
janie jew (4:35:51 PM): because my mom was on crack and my dad was abusive
Quanto inferno (4:35:54 PM): three
Quanto inferno (4:35:59 PM): ohh
Quanto inferno (4:36:07 PM): so if your mom was on crack and she was like that
Quanto inferno (4:36:10 PM): why are you doing it to
Quanto inferno (4:36:15 PM): do you want to be like her
janie jew (4:38:01 PM): i cant help it
janie jew (4:38:03 PM): i want to stop
Quanto inferno (4:38:23 PM): well
Quanto inferno (4:38:28 PM): dont kill yourself
Quanto inferno (4:38:33 PM): its not the way out of your problems
janie jew (4:38:57 PM): it feels like the only way
Quanto inferno (4:39:10 PM): well theres awlays more than one way out


	**I think that I was getting a tad bit carried away...**


janie jew (4:39:11 PM): i have a tank of gasoline and a lighter
janie jew (4:39:16 PM): im the only one home
Quanto inferno (4:39:17 PM): and killing your self isnt that anser
Quanto inferno (4:39:21 PM): noo dont burn 
Quanto inferno (4:39:23 PM): no
Quanto inferno (4:39:28 PM): burning is the worst way to die
Quanto inferno (4:41:04 PM): call a friend
janie jew (4:41:19 PM): i have no friends anymore
Quanto inferno (4:41:26 PM): grandmas?
janie jew (4:41:38 PM): my grandma died
Quanto inferno (4:41:44 PM): all of them
Quanto inferno (4:41:46 PM): anuts uncles
janie jew (4:41:47 PM): everyone that has meant something to me has died
Quanto inferno (4:41:47 PM): anyone
janie jew (4:41:52 PM): no one
janie jew (4:41:55 PM): i feel alone
Quanto inferno (4:41:57 PM): call 
Quanto inferno (4:42:02 PM): a hotline or something
janie jew (4:42:03 PM): can i call you?
Quanto inferno (4:42:07 PM): not me
janie jew (4:42:11 PM): why not?
janie jew (4:42:14 PM): i thought we were friends?
Quanto inferno (4:42:15 PM): i cant help you i dont kno anything about this
Quanto inferno (4:42:25 PM): sure we are but i dont kno you and i cant do anythign for you 
Quanto inferno (4:42:30 PM): you need to call someone who can help you
janie jew (4:43:32 PM): please 
janie jew (4:43:35 PM): i am going to do it
Quanto inferno (4:43:41 PM): no your not
Quanto inferno (4:43:44 PM): dont do it
Quanto inferno (4:43:48 PM): its not the way out
Quanto inferno (4:44:14 PM): my friend is gonna talk to you and see if she can helpyou
janie jew (4:44:54 PM): man
janie jew (4:45:05 PM): i dont want everyone knowing about my problems
janie jew (4:45:08 PM): thats why i cam to you
Quanto inferno (4:45:13 PM): you dont kno me tho
janie jew (4:45:22 PM): but i know you can help me
janie jew (4:45:24 PM): i will do it
janie jew (4:45:26 PM): i will
janie jew (4:45:27 PM): i will
Quanto inferno (4:45:32 PM): how do you kno i can hell you
Quanto inferno (4:45:34 PM): help*
Quanto inferno (4:45:52 PM): talk to my friend she knows more about this stuff
	

**So her friend Void of Pitty IM's me trying to help**


Quanto inferno (4:45:55 PM): i dont kno anything about this
Quanto inferno (4:45:58 PM): i am to young 
janie jew (4:46:16 PM): i am young too
janie jew (4:46:23 PM): i am 12
Quanto inferno (4:46:38 PM): what
Quanto inferno (4:46:40 PM): your 12
janie jew (4:46:55 PM): yes
Quanto inferno (4:46:59 PM): i dont belive you
janie jew (4:47:04 PM): FUCK
janie jew (4:47:06 PM): no one beleives me
janie jew (4:47:08 PM): no one
janie jew (4:47:09 PM): no one
Quanto inferno (4:47:12 PM): your info is to soficated for 12
janie jew (4:47:12 PM): why me?!
Quanto inferno (4:47:18 PM): look
Quanto inferno (4:47:24 PM): if you are 12
Quanto inferno (4:47:29 PM): look at all you have ahead of you
Quanto inferno (4:47:35 PM): a lfie a husband kids 
Quanto inferno (4:47:37 PM): a job 
Quanto inferno (4:47:41 PM): a family
Quanto inferno (4:47:50 PM): everything to live for 
Quanto inferno (4:47:58 PM): killing yourself wont help anything
Quanto inferno (4:48:47 PM): youve been in three asylums by 12..
janie jew (4:48:49 PM): no one
janie jew (4:48:50 PM): why?!?
Quanto inferno (4:48:55 PM): why 
janie jew (4:48:57 PM): okay i will do it
Quanto inferno (4:49:00 PM): b.c you have a future
janie jew (4:49:03 PM): i wish you could have helped me
Quanto inferno (4:49:10 PM): i am trying
Quanto inferno (4:49:11 PM): you wont let me
janie jew (4:49:23 PM): can i talk to you on the telepohne'?
Quanto inferno (4:49:31 PM): not on the phone
janie jew (4:49:37 PM): why?
Quanto inferno (4:49:42 PM): look im new to this to..i dont kno what this is like
Quanto inferno (4:49:54 PM): if some random person who is threating to kill her self asked to call you 
Quanto inferno (4:49:56 PM): would you let her
janie jew (4:50:02 PM): yes

janie jew (4:50:10 PM): i need help
Quanto inferno (4:50:14 PM): but i cant help
Quanto inferno (4:50:24 PM): call 1-800 charter or soemthign
janie jew (4:50:50 PM): no one will help
Quanto inferno (4:50:59 PM): maybe they can?
janie jew (4:51:01 PM): please?
Quanto inferno (4:51:03 PM): i dont kno what to tell you 
Quanto inferno (4:51:06 PM): no
Quanto inferno (4:51:20 PM): who are you
Quanto inferno (4:53:42 PM): hello?
janie jew (4:53:43 PM): i am a person in need of help
Quanto inferno (4:53:49 PM): yes you are 
janie jew (4:53:55 PM): i thought you would help
janie jew (4:53:57 PM): i guess not
Quanto inferno (4:53:59 PM): so call someone who is trained to help
Quanto inferno (4:54:07 PM): your not going to make me feel guilty
Quanto inferno (4:54:12 PM): i dont even kno you
Quanto inferno (4:54:15 PM): and i dont belive you either
janie jew (4:55:00 PM): oh my god
janie jew (4:55:04 PM): it wont stop bleeding
janie jew (4:55:43 PM): bloodd is aonll the keynboard
Quanto inferno (4:56:58 PM): what did you do?
janie jew (4:57:13 PM): i slit my wristtt
janie jew (4:57:17 PM): i feel weak
Quanto inferno (4:57:40 PM): where did you slit it
janie jew (4:57:49 PM): wrist
Quanto inferno (4:58:01 PM): urg
janie jew (4:58:03 PM): it wont stop
Quanto inferno (4:58:04 PM): what for 
janie jew (4:58:05 PM): i want it to stop
Quanto inferno (4:58:12 PM): ithougth you wanted to die.
Quanto inferno (4:58:33 PM): ok. here


	**Doctor 1-01**


Quanto inferno (4:58:43 PM): apply pressue to the cut and wrap it up
Quanto inferno (4:58:53 PM): and then hold your arm above your head
janie jew (4:58:54 PM): i keep cuting myself
janie jew (4:58:56 PM): i dont know why
janie jew (4:59:00 PM): im scared
janie jew (4:59:02 PM): im scared
Quanto inferno (4:59:03 PM): it will keep it from bleeding to much
Quanto inferno (4:59:06 PM): well stop
janie jew (4:59:09 PM): i cant stopa
Quanto inferno (4:59:12 PM): what are you using
Quanto inferno (4:59:13 PM): yes you can
Quanto inferno (4:59:50 PM): stop it 
janie jew (5:00:28 PM): i am using a steak knive
Quanto inferno (5:00:35 PM): ah damnit
Quanto inferno (5:00:38 PM): throw it away 
Quanto inferno (5:00:41 PM): throw it on the ground
janie jew (5:00:48 PM): the deamons wont let me
Quanto inferno (5:00:58 PM): what the hell
Quanto inferno (5:01:05 PM): ok this is getting way to fake for me
Quanto inferno (5:01:11 PM): there are no deamons
Quanto inferno (5:01:13 PM): your high
janie jew (5:01:24 PM): it is drugs
janie jew (5:01:26 PM): i swear
janie jew (5:01:27 PM): durgs
janie jew (5:01:30 PM): i need more
janie jew (5:01:32 PM): or i will 
janie jew (5:01:34 PM): i iwll
janie jew (5:01:34 PM): die
Quanto inferno (5:01:56 PM): you dont need more
Quanto inferno (5:01:58 PM): you need to stop
janie jew (5:02:01 PM): no
janie jew (5:02:02 PM): inpo
Quanto inferno (5:02:08 PM): inpo.
Quanto inferno (5:02:09 PM): ?
Quanto inferno (5:02:33 PM): who the hell are you
Quanto inferno (5:02:37 PM): and where did you get my sn
janie jew (5:02:40 PM): i am person who need help
Quanto inferno (5:02:44 PM): tell me now or i will block you
Quanto inferno (5:02:47 PM): you are full of shit
janie jew (5:02:52 PM): no one will believe me
janie jew (5:02:53 PM): why?
Quanto inferno (5:03:03 PM): b.c i kno your not woh you say youa re
janie jew (5:03:16 PM): i got it from caitlin


	**I got the name Caitlin from her Buddy Info I had like no idea 
who Caitlin was... but that was the only name that came to mind...**


Quanto inferno (5:03:26 PM): haa
Quanto inferno (5:03:27 PM): yeah
janie jew (5:03:34 PM): i did
Quanto inferno (5:03:34 PM): what the hell aldfja
Quanto inferno (5:03:37 PM): riight
Quanto inferno (5:04:02 PM): so now who is this.
Quanto inferno (5:04:04 PM): caitlin?
Quanto inferno (5:04:05 PM): claire
Quanto inferno (5:04:49 PM): hhaha i cant belive i fell for you shit 
Quanto inferno (5:05:08 PM): i shouldve known it was so corny..janie jew cant you come 
                             up with something better
janie jew (5:05:21 PM): uhm
janie jew (5:05:23 PM): this is vern
Quanto inferno (5:05:27 PM): vern.
Quanto inferno (5:05:28 PM): riight
Quanto inferno (5:05:31 PM): i dont belive you 
Quanto inferno (5:05:41 PM): then what did you get from caitlin 
janie jew (5:05:43 PM): will you still help me?
Quanto inferno (5:05:48 PM): you dont need help 
Quanto inferno (5:05:52 PM): your faking it
Quanto inferno (5:05:54 PM): now who is this
janie jew (5:06:05 PM): this is vern
janie jew (5:06:08 PM): i am 12 from usa
Quanto inferno (5:06:08 PM): no its not
Quanto inferno (5:06:15 PM): hahaha
Quanto inferno (5:06:18 PM): i dont belvee you
janie jew (5:06:21 PM): i am bleed
janie jew (5:06:25 PM): i cut my finger off
Quanto inferno (5:06:29 PM): hahaha
Quanto inferno (5:06:31 PM): hahaha
Quanto inferno (5:06:36 PM): you cut off your finger
janie jew (5:06:38 PM): hyes
Quanto inferno (5:06:39 PM): poor you
janie jew (5:06:40 PM): it hurts
janie jew (5:06:42 PM): help me
janie jew (5:06:45 PM): can i call you?
janie jew (5:06:46 PM): please
Quanto inferno (5:06:48 PM): help yourself
janie jew (5:06:50 PM): you will help
Quanto inferno (5:06:53 PM): no you cant
Quanto inferno (5:06:58 PM): no i wont 
Quanto inferno (5:07:02 PM): bc your not going to call


	**She now thinks that she's got everything figured out and that I'm her friend Caitlin**


Quanto inferno (5:07:09 PM): caitlin this is fucking low i cant belive you
janie jew (5:07:21 PM): who?
janie jew (5:07:27 PM): i got your sn from that girl
janie jew (5:07:33 PM): i msg her wanting help 
janie jew (5:07:41 PM): she msg me tell to talk to you
Quanto inferno (5:08:02 PM): oh really
Quanto inferno (5:08:07 PM): what was her sn then
Quanto inferno (5:08:36 PM): yeah thats what i thought
janie jew (5:09:06 PM): i found it in the commuinities
Quanto inferno (5:09:14 PM): what was it likethen
Quanto inferno (5:09:29 PM): and if it was caitlin then she would have been on my list
janie jew (5:09:32 PM): i dont remember i was smoking when i talked to her
Quanto inferno (5:09:35 PM): so stop with the fuckng lying
Quanto inferno (5:09:39 PM): oh really now
janie jew (5:10:02 PM): yes
Quanto inferno (5:10:06 PM): god i cant belive you
Quanto inferno (5:10:09 PM): this is so low 
Quanto inferno (5:10:17 PM): i will never forgive you for this
Quanto inferno (5:10:22 PM): Never.


	**I feel sorry for Caitlin when/if they ever speak again**


janie jew (5:10:27 PM): okay i will do it then i poured all of the gasoline in my moms room 
Quanto inferno (5:10:41 PM): oh right
Quanto inferno (5:10:46 PM): caitlin stop it
Quanto inferno (5:10:49 PM): this is so fucking lame
janie jew (5:10:51 PM): i will never
janie jew (5:10:55 PM): never forget you 
janie jew (5:11:01 PM): you did not help you just discouraged me 
janie jew (5:11:04 PM): everything about me
Quanto inferno (5:11:16 PM): ok if you were real i wouldve helped you
Quanto inferno (5:11:21 PM): but since i kno your not
Quanto inferno (5:11:37 PM): its not going to bother me
Quanto inferno (5:11:52 PM): so who is this now
Quanto inferno (5:15:55 PM): ok then dont talk 
Quanto inferno (5:17:13 PM): you can call me ***- ***-****
Quanto inferno (5:17:34 PM): hello? 


	**After a while things got boring but she did give in and send me her phone number =D **